Live With Out It
I wrote about letting go and how great it felt. Last week though I ran into a snag about letting go when I got angry. I found letting go of anger was hard.
I found that the anger I felt went deep and had to do with a lot of stuff from my past. So I took some time letting go of the past and how I see people.
Yesterday while I was sitting on my patio I was reminded of an old song about what letting go of fear and how amazing it would be to live with out it.
Today while I was sitting on the patio I starting thinking about living today without tomorrow, what a concept. Our whole lives have been about tomorrow. Everything in this life is about tomorrow. As a child we are trained so we will be ready for tomorrow. As we come into being an adult we are focused on tomorrow.
I realize that my happiness is a lot based on how I think tomorrow will be, or later today.
But also most of the things I worry about have to do with tomorrow.
Today I tried to imagine there is no tomorrow, only now. Wow I can stop obsessing about my schedule at work. I can stop thinking about bills, and shopping for food. Sounds a little crazy. But the truth is my thoughts drive me crazy with worry about tomorrow anyway.
Faith, I have been searching for answers about what I believe about God and life. I believe God is always in charge and I have tried to give Him tomorrow, but I always taken it back. But in the moment that I imagined no tomorrow then I could see there is only God, how cool is that.
Now as I practice letting go everyday, also I want to practice living without .... fear of tomorrow.
I think life is beautiful in this moment, just like God made it......
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