6th Discover about life in 2013

Letting go a continuing process




Since I started this discovery blog I am finding that letting go of fear is an ongoing process.

Yesterday I talked with someone about a job. They asked me my biggest weakness. I could not answer for I was afraid that I am full of weakness and I don't want anyone to know. 

I seem to be reminded of that conversation over and over again. And I keep trying to let go. 

Each time the thought comes I feel my self pulled into judging myself about my weaknesses. Then of course I want to fix my weakness. I fell stuck for I am not letting go. 

I searched for freedom from this in quotes and reading inspiration. 

Life may be simple and I allow it to seem hard out of habit.  

There maybe an enemy that is trying to steel my peace.  

If I find the right quote maybe I will stop thinking about this fear. 

Is the fear a lie? I don't have any answers only questions. 

Whatever the reason I am afraid.... I let it go and give it up to a better way.

Whatever today holds I trust that I have everything I need. 

Yes life is full of blessings and I see them no matter how small they are. 

And yes I am happy no matter how many fears I may have.

5th Discovery about life in 2013

Learned I could get inspiration from Iyania Vanzant through Daily Stimu-Mail

In my last Oprah magazine I found an article about one of my favorite authors, Iyania Vanzant. I have quite a few of her books. I signed up my email and now I get daily inspiration from her.

Today I read about freedom. And I was reminded about this morning when I woke up and what  I thought about. I thought about the talk I had with Duke last night. I am more and more aware that our relationship is based on his happiness not mine. I feel tied to him because I want him to love me. He tells me nice stuff and catches me like a fish. But then he goes on about his life which really has nothing to do with me.  I try to stand up for my self and told him how I felt about us really not being together, he got scared and begged me to stay in his life.  So this morning I realized that I have longed to be loved my whole life by another person. Then when I read about freedom I realized that I can be free from the need to be loved, when I really feel free to love myself.

The application of Freedom

 Do we choose for ourselves that which we truly desire?Under most of the normal conditions and pressures of life, we do not.  We allow labels and expectations to keep us in boxes, then we cry out for freedom.  The entire purpose of life on earth is for us to be free, exercise free will, and choose the parameters of our freedom.

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Freedom is a state of mind.  It is the outgrowth of our willingness to make conscious choices of our own free will and to live through the consequences of our choices without blame, shame, or guilt.  Freedom is a sign of self-awareness.  When you are aware of what it takes to maintain your mental, emotional, and physical well-being and you make conscious choices toward that goal, you are exercising your freedom.Freedom is the recognition of the truth.

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You are powerful.You are unlimited.  You are the reflection of creative genius.  When you realize this truth and accept it as a fact of your reality, you know that you are free to choose whatever you believe to be the truest reflection of your identity.  Freedom requires consistent and repeated acts of courage.

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What you believe, how you feel, what you do, how you respond to any given circumstance at any given time is the only impediment to freedom.  You are always free to choose how you will respond.

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Are you courageous enough to live the truth of your desires without fear?  This is what will determine your freedom.  . . .  More important, once you are clear about the experience you want to have, you are free to make the choices that will result in your having that experience.

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When I realized that God, the divine source of life, not people, was the source and substance of all good things, I was freed from every "ism" that held me captive.

Excerpted from One Day My Soul Just Opened Up

by

Iyanla Vanzant

4th Discovery about life in 2013

Learned about Pinterest

Sometime this year I checked out Pinterest. And the more I check it out the more I like it.

The first time I looked at Pinterest I found it overwhelming and didn't think I would ever enjoy using it. But one day I gave it a second look. I signed up and started my own boards. I started following people whose boards were of interest to me.

I love quotes. And Pinterest has more quotes than I have ever found searching the internet. I think the reason it works so well is the sharing. People collect and share. And the more people I follow them more quotes I find to love.

You can organize your pins and put them on different boards. I find that I would rather collect at this point, for just pinning a quote encourages me to keep going. Finding quote after quote keeps me in the moment. Letting go of the organization of my pins reminds me to let go of control and perfection.

But Pinterest is more than quotes, it has everything I can imagine about life and more. Like decorating, recipes, crafts, travel and so on and so on.

I am very thankful I found Pinterest and gave it a second look.....

3rd Discovery about life in 2013

Live now

Hours are low at work. So I have some extra time. I am doing my best to believe this is a part of God's plan. I say the words that I believe God is in control but I seem to worry more about my choices. I just read a cool quote "Should-haves solve nothing. It's the next thing to happen, that needs thinking about. -Alexandra Riply.

I have spent the morning getting in touch with me, taking care of me. I took a long bath and shaved. I plan to go get my hair done and not talk my self out of it.

I am cleaning out my leather Franklin Planner. This is something I own that I can't seem to let go of. As I have opened my self to what I like about it and what I can use it for to make it worth keeping I find that I am living in the now. Now this minute I am touching the pages I have made for it that make me feel good. I am looking at the words I have kept to remind me what I believe in.

I have a letter from God in my planner. I rewrote it so I could read it better and when I did I discovered that the letter came alive and I felt clearer that it was from God.

Here is the letter from God

Dear Lana

   I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing. 

   One that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best.

   Please allow me to bring it to you. 

   Your just keep watching me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am. Keep listening and learning the things I tell you. You just wait, that all. Don't be anxious. Do not worry. Don't look around at what others have. Don't look around for all the things you want. 

   You just keep looking at me, or you will miss what I want to show you. 

   And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful life. 

   Know that I love you with an everlasting love.

                                                                                              Your loving father
                                                                                                          God 

Today I am discovering more to like about who I am now and believe more that God's plan is beautiful.

2nd Discovery about Life 2013

Live With Out It

I wrote about letting go and how great it felt. Last week though I ran into a snag about letting go when I got angry. I found letting go of anger was hard.

I found that the anger I felt went deep and had to do with a lot of stuff from my past. So I took some time letting go of the past and how I see people.


Yesterday while I was sitting on my patio I was reminded of an old song about what letting go of fear and how amazing it would be to live with out it.

Today while I was sitting on the patio I starting thinking about living today without tomorrow, what a concept. Our whole lives have been about tomorrow. Everything in this life is about tomorrow. As a child we are trained so we will be ready for tomorrow. As we come into being an adult we are focused on tomorrow.

I realize that my happiness is a lot based on how I think tomorrow will be, or later today.

But also most of the things I worry about have to do with tomorrow.

Today I tried to imagine there is no tomorrow, only now. Wow I can stop obsessing about my schedule at work. I can stop thinking about bills, and shopping for food. Sounds a little crazy. But the truth is my thoughts drive me crazy with worry about tomorrow anyway.


Faith, I have been searching for answers about what I believe about God and life.  I believe God is always in charge and I have tried to give Him tomorrow, but I always taken it back. But in the moment that I imagined no tomorrow then I could see there is only God, how cool is that.


Now as I practice letting go everyday, also I want to practice living without .... fear of tomorrow.

I think life is beautiful in this moment, just like God made it......

1st Discovery about life 2013

Let Go....

I was sick with a virus all last week. During that time I learned about letting go. I was home and I had to decide if I was going to be depressed being sick or if I was going to learn something.

When you are too sick to really do anything your life slows down so much. I decided I could be thankful for life slowing down for that was a thing I had been worrying about that I would not enjoy summer and then it would be over. And that thought led to me to realize that right before I got sick I was stressed about time, money, work, people.....

That is when I started practicing letting go. Every time a thought came to me to start thinking about a concern in my life, I would tell myself to let go. I would keep saying that until the thought was gone.

In a short amount of time this process made a huge difference in my life. For so much of my time is taken up working on concerns in my head. I found that without being weighed down by thoughts, I would get moving and do simple little things like wash some dishes. And that simple task was amazing. I focused on the cleanness, the feel of the water, the smell of the soap and how good getting something done felt.

Letting go of my expectations of other people gives me more time to enjoy this life. Letting go of tomorrow makes today so much fuller. Letting go of time makes each moment so much brighter. Letting go of yesterday gives me freedom to live today. Letting go of money, seems to change to way I see money.

I went back to work yesterday. I started to be concerned.... but I let go. At work I felt a wonderful since of presence in the moment. I was not attached to expectations of other people, time or money. I was there and simply thankful to feel well and be able to work.

New Journey in 2013

In June of this year I got a new car, it is a 2006 Chevy Colbalt

I also got a new tag for my car DAK 0021

I wanted to personalize my tag and came up with ideas but decided to post pone that idea because of the cost.

So instead I searched for ideas that I could use to personalize my new tag to me and I came up with  Discoveries and Keys 21 new ideas about life. I have even ordered a sticker for my car and business cards to go alone with my new theme.    

I am decorating the interior of my new car with Mickey Mouse.

I plan to write about he discoveries as I study them.