11th Discovery about life in 2013

Life is not the struggle my thoughts tell me it is.


With all my discoveries lately I am realizing that most of my struggles are simply in my thoughts. The thoughts that come to me at times make me upset. 

Letting go of those thoughts worked for awhile but new thoughts of me being upset kept coming. 

Then one day I was reminded of the words I read once "I am not my thoughts". Then I remembered I am the seer, the doer. The thoughts are in my mind, but they are not me. I am the same person I was at 3 years old. I am here to discover and live this wonderful life. And at that moment I stopped listening to those thoughts in my mind and lived in the moment of what I was seeing and doing. Wow what a difference. I didn't feel any anger about the things I judged to be unfair. For I was filled with the moment and what I was doing with that moment. 

In my smash book, I find the words I wrote once.

Life is not a Battle

It just is....

breathing
seeing
hearing 
feeling
tasting
smelling

Life is a gift from God!

10th Discovery about life in 2013

Life is changing all the time.

The way I look at things around me changes. The way I approach my life is changing. And all the changes can seem over whelming at times. 

Can it be that simple to see change as acceptable and not something I need to fix? 

Are the thoughts that come at me and challenge everything around me, simply trying to fight change?

The more I read the Iyanla news letters the more I read about accepting God's will over what I so want. 

I believe God's will is the best for me. And yet I have spent a life time trying to control everything around me. 

I cannot control change. I cannot control what already happened. I really can't control anything. 

Somewhere in this life I picked up the idea that I had to control my life. And no wonder life has seemed so out of control for me. 

I am thankful for this blog. I am thankful for what I am learning and the changes in my life. 

Today I will choose to accept this day as it is. I will believe that God has the best plan for me. And I can stop fretting over all the things that may happen to day. 

Today I choose to see God working in me and through me. I choose to enjoy this wonderful life just the way He made it.   

9th Discovery about life in 2013

Life is so!

A couple of days ago I got up read the Iyanla newsletter. I discovered a brand new way to see my day. I went to work thinking about how God had already made the day and His plan is perfect. All I needed to do was trust Him. 

But that day I got to work 4 hours early for I had not paid attention to my schedule. So I decided how cool was that to have 4 hours to be out and about. I went to McDonald's and grabbed a bite to eat. Then I went to Joann's to look around. But as I was getting out of the car I discovered my back was missed up and I could hardly walk. I tried relaxing and walking slowly but the stress of the pain tired me out. When I got back in my car I was wondering how in the world was I going to be able to work. 

I remembered the wonderful thoughts I had so clearly that morning. How God made the day and already knew what would happen. So this was part of God's plan and even though I was not happy with the pain I was content in His plan. 

I went to Walmart the closest place that I could think of to get aspirin for the pain. I thought that Walmart had an eat in place also. I found the pills and a magazine. But no place to relax. So I went to Biggby Coffee and relaxed for a couple of hours. 

When I left the pain was still with me so I took two more pills. 

I walked slowly into JCPenney's not sure how I would work but I left that in God's hands. Then when I started my shift the pain was gone and I worked all day with no pain. 

Life is so. Living the life I have instead of focusing on what was or what will be is awesome. Focusing on God's presence more than what I want life to be is freedom. Freedom from mistakes and disappointments. 

I still have the old thoughts come that I start to think about and start to worry again, but I am able to see the moment and put the thoughts down and simply be where I am and let life be so! 

NOTHING TO BE HEALED  

There is nothing to be healed

only God to be revealed.

God is Divine Intelligence. I now accept and allow the presence of God is being revealed as Divine Intelligence within me and all round me.

There is nothing to be healed

only God to be revealed.

God is Perfect Wisdom. I now accept and allow the presence of God is being revealed as perfect wisdom with me and all around me.

There is nothing to be healed

only God to be revealed.

God is Prosperity, Abundance and Wealth. I now accept and allow the abundance of God is being revealed as prosperity, abundance and wealth within me and all around me.

There is nothing to be healed

only God to be revealed.

Today, I ask for and open myself to receive the presence, power and divine revelation of God, Divine Intelligence, wisdom, prosperity, abundance and wealth to unfold in my mind, my heart, my life and all around my family with grace and ease.  

Now, I let it Be.

For all that is revealed to me this day, I Am grateful.

And So It Is!

Rev. Dr. Iyanla Vanzant 

8th Discover about life in 2013

Letting go of things to be happy!

7th Discovery in 2013

Little miracles everyday

In the past few days I have been experiencing wonderful miracles in my life. 

Thursday, on my way home from work I started thinking about what I would like for super and decided not to get fast food. But I was really tired and didn't want to fuss with making anything when I got home. I started wishing that a certain frozen pizza was in the freezer when I got home. I knew I could go to target and purchase one, but I really didn't have the energy. This pizza has goat cheese, spinach and slices of tomato. It truly is the best frozen pizza I have ever tasted. Oh well I thought of something else simple I would make when I got home. I went to the fridge to get out what I wanted and for some reason I opened the freezer and low and behold there was the exact pizza I had been thinking about sitting in my freezer waiting for me. wow!

Friday, again driving home from work this time much later in the evening I kept thinking about a desert. Again I told myself no to take out. Besides everything that came to mind was not really what I was craving. Just as I got to Taco Bell the car in front of me turned in so I decided to follow. But the line of cars was to long of a wait at 11 pm. So I pulled out of line and left, but something told me to try Burger King next door. And there on the menu was just what I was craving and didn't know they had, a oreo milkshake. Again WOW!

Saturday, I didn't have to go into work until 5:30 pm. Lynette called and told me there was an art show in Northville. For me this was a miracle for I would have missed it and my schedule was just right for it. We went and I had the most amazing relaxing time I have ever had at an art fair. The weather was perfect. But most amazingly I was relaxed. Even though I had been working harder at work and even knew I had to go to work that evening. I was living in the moment the way I always dreamed that I wanted to live and for me that was the biggest miracle this week. 

6th Discover about life in 2013

Letting go a continuing process




Since I started this discovery blog I am finding that letting go of fear is an ongoing process.

Yesterday I talked with someone about a job. They asked me my biggest weakness. I could not answer for I was afraid that I am full of weakness and I don't want anyone to know. 

I seem to be reminded of that conversation over and over again. And I keep trying to let go. 

Each time the thought comes I feel my self pulled into judging myself about my weaknesses. Then of course I want to fix my weakness. I fell stuck for I am not letting go. 

I searched for freedom from this in quotes and reading inspiration. 

Life may be simple and I allow it to seem hard out of habit.  

There maybe an enemy that is trying to steel my peace.  

If I find the right quote maybe I will stop thinking about this fear. 

Is the fear a lie? I don't have any answers only questions. 

Whatever the reason I am afraid.... I let it go and give it up to a better way.

Whatever today holds I trust that I have everything I need. 

Yes life is full of blessings and I see them no matter how small they are. 

And yes I am happy no matter how many fears I may have.

5th Discovery about life in 2013

Learned I could get inspiration from Iyania Vanzant through Daily Stimu-Mail

In my last Oprah magazine I found an article about one of my favorite authors, Iyania Vanzant. I have quite a few of her books. I signed up my email and now I get daily inspiration from her.

Today I read about freedom. And I was reminded about this morning when I woke up and what  I thought about. I thought about the talk I had with Duke last night. I am more and more aware that our relationship is based on his happiness not mine. I feel tied to him because I want him to love me. He tells me nice stuff and catches me like a fish. But then he goes on about his life which really has nothing to do with me.  I try to stand up for my self and told him how I felt about us really not being together, he got scared and begged me to stay in his life.  So this morning I realized that I have longed to be loved my whole life by another person. Then when I read about freedom I realized that I can be free from the need to be loved, when I really feel free to love myself.

The application of Freedom

 Do we choose for ourselves that which we truly desire?Under most of the normal conditions and pressures of life, we do not.  We allow labels and expectations to keep us in boxes, then we cry out for freedom.  The entire purpose of life on earth is for us to be free, exercise free will, and choose the parameters of our freedom.

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Freedom is a state of mind.  It is the outgrowth of our willingness to make conscious choices of our own free will and to live through the consequences of our choices without blame, shame, or guilt.  Freedom is a sign of self-awareness.  When you are aware of what it takes to maintain your mental, emotional, and physical well-being and you make conscious choices toward that goal, you are exercising your freedom.Freedom is the recognition of the truth.

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You are powerful.You are unlimited.  You are the reflection of creative genius.  When you realize this truth and accept it as a fact of your reality, you know that you are free to choose whatever you believe to be the truest reflection of your identity.  Freedom requires consistent and repeated acts of courage.

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What you believe, how you feel, what you do, how you respond to any given circumstance at any given time is the only impediment to freedom.  You are always free to choose how you will respond.

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Are you courageous enough to live the truth of your desires without fear?  This is what will determine your freedom.  . . .  More important, once you are clear about the experience you want to have, you are free to make the choices that will result in your having that experience.

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When I realized that God, the divine source of life, not people, was the source and substance of all good things, I was freed from every "ism" that held me captive.

Excerpted from One Day My Soul Just Opened Up

by

Iyanla Vanzant

4th Discovery about life in 2013

Learned about Pinterest

Sometime this year I checked out Pinterest. And the more I check it out the more I like it.

The first time I looked at Pinterest I found it overwhelming and didn't think I would ever enjoy using it. But one day I gave it a second look. I signed up and started my own boards. I started following people whose boards were of interest to me.

I love quotes. And Pinterest has more quotes than I have ever found searching the internet. I think the reason it works so well is the sharing. People collect and share. And the more people I follow them more quotes I find to love.

You can organize your pins and put them on different boards. I find that I would rather collect at this point, for just pinning a quote encourages me to keep going. Finding quote after quote keeps me in the moment. Letting go of the organization of my pins reminds me to let go of control and perfection.

But Pinterest is more than quotes, it has everything I can imagine about life and more. Like decorating, recipes, crafts, travel and so on and so on.

I am very thankful I found Pinterest and gave it a second look.....

3rd Discovery about life in 2013

Live now

Hours are low at work. So I have some extra time. I am doing my best to believe this is a part of God's plan. I say the words that I believe God is in control but I seem to worry more about my choices. I just read a cool quote "Should-haves solve nothing. It's the next thing to happen, that needs thinking about. -Alexandra Riply.

I have spent the morning getting in touch with me, taking care of me. I took a long bath and shaved. I plan to go get my hair done and not talk my self out of it.

I am cleaning out my leather Franklin Planner. This is something I own that I can't seem to let go of. As I have opened my self to what I like about it and what I can use it for to make it worth keeping I find that I am living in the now. Now this minute I am touching the pages I have made for it that make me feel good. I am looking at the words I have kept to remind me what I believe in.

I have a letter from God in my planner. I rewrote it so I could read it better and when I did I discovered that the letter came alive and I felt clearer that it was from God.

Here is the letter from God

Dear Lana

   I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan existing. 

   One that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best.

   Please allow me to bring it to you. 

   Your just keep watching me, expecting the greatest things. Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am. Keep listening and learning the things I tell you. You just wait, that all. Don't be anxious. Do not worry. Don't look around at what others have. Don't look around for all the things you want. 

   You just keep looking at me, or you will miss what I want to show you. 

   And dear one, I want you to have the most wonderful life. 

   Know that I love you with an everlasting love.

                                                                                              Your loving father
                                                                                                          God 

Today I am discovering more to like about who I am now and believe more that God's plan is beautiful.

2nd Discovery about Life 2013

Live With Out It

I wrote about letting go and how great it felt. Last week though I ran into a snag about letting go when I got angry. I found letting go of anger was hard.

I found that the anger I felt went deep and had to do with a lot of stuff from my past. So I took some time letting go of the past and how I see people.


Yesterday while I was sitting on my patio I was reminded of an old song about what letting go of fear and how amazing it would be to live with out it.

Today while I was sitting on the patio I starting thinking about living today without tomorrow, what a concept. Our whole lives have been about tomorrow. Everything in this life is about tomorrow. As a child we are trained so we will be ready for tomorrow. As we come into being an adult we are focused on tomorrow.

I realize that my happiness is a lot based on how I think tomorrow will be, or later today.

But also most of the things I worry about have to do with tomorrow.

Today I tried to imagine there is no tomorrow, only now. Wow I can stop obsessing about my schedule at work. I can stop thinking about bills, and shopping for food. Sounds a little crazy. But the truth is my thoughts drive me crazy with worry about tomorrow anyway.


Faith, I have been searching for answers about what I believe about God and life.  I believe God is always in charge and I have tried to give Him tomorrow, but I always taken it back. But in the moment that I imagined no tomorrow then I could see there is only God, how cool is that.


Now as I practice letting go everyday, also I want to practice living without .... fear of tomorrow.

I think life is beautiful in this moment, just like God made it......

1st Discovery about life 2013

Let Go....

I was sick with a virus all last week. During that time I learned about letting go. I was home and I had to decide if I was going to be depressed being sick or if I was going to learn something.

When you are too sick to really do anything your life slows down so much. I decided I could be thankful for life slowing down for that was a thing I had been worrying about that I would not enjoy summer and then it would be over. And that thought led to me to realize that right before I got sick I was stressed about time, money, work, people.....

That is when I started practicing letting go. Every time a thought came to me to start thinking about a concern in my life, I would tell myself to let go. I would keep saying that until the thought was gone.

In a short amount of time this process made a huge difference in my life. For so much of my time is taken up working on concerns in my head. I found that without being weighed down by thoughts, I would get moving and do simple little things like wash some dishes. And that simple task was amazing. I focused on the cleanness, the feel of the water, the smell of the soap and how good getting something done felt.

Letting go of my expectations of other people gives me more time to enjoy this life. Letting go of tomorrow makes today so much fuller. Letting go of time makes each moment so much brighter. Letting go of yesterday gives me freedom to live today. Letting go of money, seems to change to way I see money.

I went back to work yesterday. I started to be concerned.... but I let go. At work I felt a wonderful since of presence in the moment. I was not attached to expectations of other people, time or money. I was there and simply thankful to feel well and be able to work.

New Journey in 2013

In June of this year I got a new car, it is a 2006 Chevy Colbalt

I also got a new tag for my car DAK 0021

I wanted to personalize my tag and came up with ideas but decided to post pone that idea because of the cost.

So instead I searched for ideas that I could use to personalize my new tag to me and I came up with  Discoveries and Keys 21 new ideas about life. I have even ordered a sticker for my car and business cards to go alone with my new theme.    

I am decorating the interior of my new car with Mickey Mouse.

I plan to write about he discoveries as I study them.

September 1, 2012

I got up before 4 am this morning the first day of three days off. I want to find something cool to do today and thought of looking for a bookstore and found one close to home with a coffee shop in the same location. Going to go try it out and see what I think.

Well I did try it out and it certainly is small. I skipped the coffee house because of the beer sign.

Well it was after 11am and I was hungry. Drove how I was lead and thought of RED Robin and I was so glad I went. Very good salad and enjoyed myself very much.

Headed to Farmington where Vicki said there was another book store. Wow it was a farmers market going and crowed. Would I find a place to park? Yes right in front of TJMax where I wanted to check out the wallets. No wallet but the book store was right next door and was it every big, huge. So I wander around. It was musty and the books were not for me but still an adventure.

Really need to go to the bathroom. Drove back over the Starbucks and hoped for a spot to park and wow yes there was one right in front of Starbucks. Made it to the bathroom and did not even have to wait. Got a coupon with my coffee for I had made it there before 2pm. Wow what a day. Sat outside and enjoyed the weather.

Drove to a gas station on that side of town hoping for better prices, but no luck and got my gas anyway. Alan called and said we can do his birthday today. He would call me back about the movie and he did. Drove home and got ready for my evening with Alan.

Alan I met at the movies and watched the new Batman. We had snacks because it was a 3 hour movie. We ate at the Mexican restaurant by the theater and enjoy a very comfortable time talking and relaxing. What a wonderful day!!!!  

A week since my last post

Life is like this road, it curves and we cannot see around the curve. 


I have taken some time to read over the blogs I have written. I have felt at times I am learning to overcome my fears. I have been brave and stretched myself into new areas.
And at other times I have given up and been lost in anger. 


I am off for 4 days. I am hoping as I blog today that I can get in touch with my inner self and be in the moment and let go of what is around the curve. 


I have 4 days to do with whatever I wish. I hope to use them well. And mostly I hope to not hide from what could be around that corner. 


I am praying for strength to have my head in touch with my heart. To be aware when I am lost in thoughts of fear and instead of running from them to stand up and face them and realize they are not the truth.  To celebrate my life just like it is and really believe I can make the best choices and all is well. 


Today I am going to enjoy who I am, just as I am, for I am a child of God. I am going to listen for I am being led. 


Instead of dreading that curve I am going to ACCEPT life!


Recognize what I can change and what I can't. In every moment, accept that everything is as it should be. Accept that my body is round and fat and glorious. Just love it. Accept that I don't do things the way everyone else does. Just embrace it. Accept that sometimes I don't have enough money for things I want and life is just hard. Just cry and move through it. Accept that I can't do it all-and who would want to, anyway? Accept a kind word. Don't apologize. Accept a gift --no matter how big, how small. Say Thank you without embarrassment. Accept that life isn't always fair and find the wonder in that, too. Don't accept things that aren't mine, like misdirected shame and blame. Like credit for someone else's accomplishment. Like disrespect. Accept everything I am and nothing I am not. 




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Seeing

Today when I woke up before 4am I couldn't go back to sleep. I kept thinking about stuff in my life. Out of all my thinking I noticed that lots of the time when I think I see pictures in my thoughts of people and places I am thinking about. Clear pictures kinda like watching television.

The more I thought about it I wondered if watching more television instead of reading books has made me lazy in understanding life. For it seems that I understand or hold unto what I remember I see more than what I feel.

Can words make us go deeper inside to feel more than an image can? I think that it uses more of our brain to read words and then internalize those words than to see a picture and internalize what the picture says to us.

I have met 2 new guys in my life lately. One only by chatting on the internet and one in person at my job. The guy I am trying to let go of that has been a part of my life for many years is also in my thoughts.

The guy I have spent many hours with I have lots of clear pictures in my mind and often just seeing something brings him to me. The guy I have only seen three times in the last two days somehow has made a great impression on me and I see him very clearly. The guy I met online I have not seen in person. and I am most confused about.

I trust so often what I see. And I have been wanting for sometime to learn how to trust my source deep within me. To listen more to the small still voice that I believe has my best interest at heart. To get more in tune with the living water running though me.

Meeting someone on line forced me to deal with trust issues I have. Allowing myself to overcome my fears of trusting someone to really care for me. I think this is true because I have felt different about myself. lately. It seems to take a lot of faith to look at words and believe them with no real see-able evidence in front of me.

All this being said I am grateful for the new turns in my life right now. I am thankful for the strength to stretch my life and be open to new experiences. 

And the biggest thing I learned today about the seeing is that, being so use to pictures to tell the story makes looking at tomorrow so hard. I try to hard to visualize what I can not possibly see. And knowing this I hope will help me lean more on the small still voice within me today and less on the picture of life I hope for tomorrow. For God has all my life in His loving hands.

Living a dream and loving to blog.

Easter 2012

I woke up early before sunrise and remembered how I have enjoyed Easter morning in times gone by. I would watch the dark sky waiting for light remembering how Jesus taught us to believe in God's love. 


I lit candles and put music on. I sat in the dark listening for God to speak to me.


I don't have any words to write but I do have a feeling of contentment. I feel full of love. 


I felt led to read my book "Oh the places you will go". I have been in the waiting place waiting for something better than I have. 


I must find my way back to faith, and simply remember that my life is:


A lifetime of self-discovery and self-creation. A lifetime of struggle, of wondering where you belong, of testing and tasting and letting go and bringing forth your own glorious self. It may often feel as though your're going nowhere, but trust that your are always exactly where you need to be.

Stop Running

Do you ever caught yourself running from your thoughts? I do and it seems like that's all I do lately.

I want to lay them down. I want to let go of them.

Yesterday I read these words;

If you are working to eliminate negative thoughts and feelings, think before you act! Stop yourself from walking down the path of reaction. Examine your beliefs about yourself and your experiences. Be willing to release those things that are in conflict with your goal to release negative thoughts and feelings. Only when you participate on all three levels of your being can you break habitual responses that repeatedly produce unwanted experiences.

I have been separating my heart and mind. Trying to choose one over the other. Blaming myself for listening to the wrong one.

Lord I give you all my wants and desires. Today I trust you with my mind and my heart. Here are all my burdens please help me to leave them with you.

Celebrating life no matter what!

Ever had a day you felt like this picture looks, really wrong.

Yesterday I started out the day determined and happy I could be the good news. I was alive with the thought I could focus on being the good news and everything was good.

On the way home from work it was a beautiful day, sun shining and gorgeous. I almost hit a goose and didn't and I was feeling very blessed.

Then it all changed. I was waiting to pull into my parking spot for a kid had to move, and as I am waiting a car next to me is backing out, I kept thinking it saw me and would stop. I tried to blow my horn but could not find it. And then it happened, bang, crunch my mirror fell down. I started crying and could not stop. The man got out of his car and tried fixing my mirror and said his insurance would fix it. My spot opened I parked the car and went in the apartment crying. I could not stop.

The police came and took my info. I was in a daze. I knew I only have liability and no insurance is going to pay a claim. I did not want to look at my car. Just the other day I had counted my blessing that I had not gotten into any accidents with my car and now it happened. And here is the truth of my misery why I cried so much. My paycheck is small just enough to pay my bills. NO extra money to buy groceries, no money to get my hair done, no money to shop at all and now my car needs to be fixed.

I had felt so good that morning at work when someone said I was always in a good mood. I patted my self on the back for overcoming the stress of my life and going out and bring the good news. And now I was a mess. I was so angry about my life. Was I ever going to get a break. I knew I was angry but I was tired of trying so hard to be happy.

I had already agreed to babysit so I went to my daughters and sat there in her living room crying. They looked at my car and showed me everything was fine and fixable. For I have a plastic Saturn and no worries. But that did not make me feel better. I did not want to feel better.

Babysitting went well for it kept my worries at bay. My daughter came back from there time out and brought me a gift trying to cheer me up. But I did not want to be cheered up. I was tired of being a happy person....

I woke up this morning tired, but my anger is gone. I know that God never gives us more than we can handle. And there is a reason for everything even a day gone wrong.

My hope is back. and yesterday is over. Maybe I needed a day just to be angry.

I want to remember that some days just go wrong but they are a beautiful day for it. And admitting I am not a superwomen is such a relief.

love this blog.......

The Good News

Today I am the good news!

I read those words this morning. I read that until today I may have been waiting to recieve some good news. And that I hay have been listening to or spreading gloomy, dismal or bad news. But just for today I can be devoted to being the good news in my own life.

This fit me so perfectly today. I had a day yesterday that I felt was terrible. And all I want to spread was bad news for I had been waiting for great news and did not get it.

The funny thing is the day before was amazingly great. So I think I expected yesterday to be great and it was not. At any rate yesterday I felt bad all day.

Today I read these words. Today I am not going to focus on what is not right in my life. I am not going to complain. There will be no crisis, no drama, no victim stories for me today. There will be no sadness, no gloom and no doom. On this day I am going to be the good new!. I am going to show up with something good to say, something good to give, something good to do for somebody. Today I will realize when I am the good news, I can only receive the perfect reflection of who and what I am.

What wonderful words to live by and I am thankful I read them today.

Fear Not

I have been so afraid for the last while.

I have been afraid to trust another person. I have been afraid that I am not good enough to have another person in my life.

The Lord is my strength ......

Isaiah 41:10

fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Proverbs 3:5&6

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

Isaiah 30:21

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it."

Psalm 23

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1 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.

3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

This blog is me searching for strength. There is more to believe in than to fear. I am not giving into this time of uncertainty.

With God All things are Possible